Writing My Way Through Memory: The Novella That Found Me

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Some stories donโ€™t ask permission โ€” they just show up, unpack their bags, and move into your head. This oneโ€™s been living rent-free in mine for months, and I finally gave in and started writing.

So I started writing a novella a couple months ago. Iโ€™ve mentioned it here briefly, but my current lack of motivation to work on blog posts is making me think it might be worth sharing chapters of this very alive story from time to time, and I thought Iโ€™d prepare you all for that! ๐Ÿ˜†

Itโ€™s not fully planned out, and itโ€™s still very much in progress. Itโ€™s very raw & personal. Itโ€™s about the friend Iโ€™ve mentioned that Iโ€™ve been missing a lot lately. (Well, the first part of it is about him, & things that actually happened.) – I just appreciate giving a little more life to our relationship, and honoring what we had. Cuz it was pretty epic.

So I hope youโ€™ll enjoy the ride as I work on it occasionally. (Donโ€™t worry, my โ€œregularโ€ content will still be the primary focus on my blog. – This is just a โ€œside questโ€, if you will.)

The Spark That Wouldnโ€™t STFU

About a year ago now, someone said something that reminded me of an old friend, and all kinds of memories came flooding back about him. Relentlessly, because I was starting to feel some burnout from a situation Iโ€™d been dealing with for a couple years prior.

He was always a source of love, comfort, & valuable perspective, even when he was dealing with his own struggles. He was someone I respected, admired, & adored immensely. His resilience & strength fed into my own and helped shape the woman I grew to be, even while he wasnโ€™t around.

We never dated; our love was always platonic (though we probably wouldโ€™ve jumped on each other if given the opportunity!!) I never felt that I was capable of loving him the way he needed & deserved, and I think he felt the same way. I always felt that friendship was definitely better than nothing, and I still would have his back forever if heโ€™d let me.

He ghosted me after a misunderstanding that he apparently didnโ€™t want to work out. Which was the worst heartbreak of my life, if Iโ€™m being completely honest.

With all those memories flooding back, along came the same unresolved grief Iโ€™d experienced over ten years ago but with a more mature perspective.

So I decided to try to turn it into something as beautifully chaotic as it is. Maybe itโ€™ll help me find more peace with the situation, maybe not. But it deserves itโ€™s tiny place in literary history, cuz it was a hell of a ride!

A Glimpse at the Story

Fair warning – the characters are ACCIDENTALLY named Jack & Sally. I say accidentally because heโ€™s a fan of Nightmare Before Christmas, and thatโ€™s not at all what the names are in reference to lol! When trying to think of names, I decided the girlโ€™s name would be Sally because that was my โ€œpen nameโ€ online back then (because of the Foxboro Hot Tubsโ€™ song by that name). Jack struck me as an โ€œedgy guy nameโ€. And then I realized what I had doneโ€ฆand decided not to care!

Ultimately, the story will follow Jack & Sally from when they met, and throughout decades. Obviously, a fair amount of the beginning is based on real memories, while the latter parts will drift into fiction based on experiences with other people in my life, including a little tragedy (which I wouldnโ€™t wish on anyone, especially โ€œJackโ€). For the most part though, itโ€™s somewhere between a fun, lighthearted love story, and a reckoning.

Coffee, Chaos, and Chapter Two (And a Half)

So far, writing it has been a treat! I’ve really enjoyed reminiscing about how sweet & fun that relationship was. It’s really been filling my heart with the same love I felt back then.

I’m only about 2ยฝ chapters in at this point. A couple spots were tough to figure out how to put together, but I think I managed. Everything that’s in there is in there for a reason.

I’m learning just how emotionally stoic I tend to be. And how passionate he tended to be. Which could balance us at times, and throw us extremely off balance at other times.

I’ve also realized just how much we genuinely loved each other. Which makes the heartache suck even more now than it did back then.

When do I find time to write? Mostly in the mornings, after I finish my essential focus work, and only if I don’t have a blog post to work on. In other words, rarely. But once I get started, I never wanna stop – I wish I could work on it all day every day! โค๏ธ

The Heart Behind the Words

This story isnโ€™t just a recall of events, but more of an extension of my life philosophy & heart. Lots of emotional territory will get explored, from love to loss, to healing & rebellion & a sense of identity (even when that gets shaken).

Iโ€™ll be sharing bits and pieces here as I go โ€” maybe some full chapters, maybe just thoughts from the process. So if you like watching a story come alive in real time, stick around. This oneโ€™s going to be interesting.


What would you like to see โ€” more โ€œbehind the scenesโ€ posts or the chapters themselves?

And tell me this: what kind of stories haunt your mind until you write them down?

Letโ€™s chat in the comments.

If this post resonated, give it a like, share it with a friend, and subscribe for more messy, heartfelt creative chaos.

Rock on. ๐Ÿค˜

7 Unconventional Goal Ideas for the New Year (start now!)

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New Yearโ€™s resolutions are stupid. People pledge to do this thing that they donโ€™t have an actual system for, & change that thing for 2 weeks, & it doesnโ€™t work. Letโ€™s get real about personal growth & plan outside the box this year, shall we? Here are 7 unconventional goal ideas for the new year to contemplate executing now.

โ€œDonโ€™t Doโ€ Bingo

Get a blank bingo grid (or use the one I made, at the end of this post) & fill the boxes with habits, relationships, or activities you want to let go of. If you feel satisfied that youโ€™ve moved on from something on your bingo card, mark it off. When you get a โ€œbingoโ€, you should treat yourself to a concert or something to celebrate your determination & self respect!

Theme

Instead of goals, choose a theme for the year. Be more intentional with how you show up for your daily life using this theme as a guide for your actions & decisions.

Feeling goals

What do you want to feel more of this year (peace, joy, etc)? Brainstorm activities to bring more of these feelings into your life!

What is your signature strength?

What is your signature strength? Are you particularly good at writing, teaching, or making people laugh? Consider ways to use this strength more intentionally in your daily life.

Set monthly challenges for yourself

You could experiment with different lifestyles by trying a special diet for a week, a scheduled โ€œdo nothing dayโ€ each week, or a digital minimalism month with no social media one week, no electronics after 10pm another week, & so on. You could also commit to dabbling into learning about a different topic youโ€™ve been interested in each month, like a new language, skill, or hobby – dabbling lessens the pressure of mastery!

Plan mini adventures

Monthly, if possible! A hike or a bike ride & then out for lunch is always fun. Or you could check out a local historical spot youโ€™ve never visited. Museums, zoos, & art galleries are often open year round, and you can camp out at some national parks for free (or cheap!)

Start a gratitude box

Get a big empty jar or cigar box, & add small notes or mementos to it throughout the year. Whenever you need a little boost of gratitude, pop it open & review your deposits!

Conclusion

That are a lot of fulfilling ways to set goals that donโ€™t involve the rigidity of typical systems. Think outside the box & expand your horizons!

What unique goals do you have for the coming year? Iโ€™d love to hear them in the comments below!

And hereโ€™s a simple โ€œDonโ€™t Do Bingoโ€ card, if youโ€™d like to use it ๐Ÿ˜Š

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Where I’m At #3

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just random updates about whatโ€™s going on in my life at any random time, based on the areas / roles in my life. Any particular goals Iโ€™m working on will be highlighted, so you can easily see what Iโ€™m actively working on improving (and see that I do try to practice what I preach). Leave a comment & give me ideas for things youโ€™d like to see me write individual posts about!

  • planner : Trying to refresh my whole system ahead of the new year because I feel a bit stagnant. I’m testing out a simplified morning routine, a more insight driven journaling routine, and a more simplified goal planning system.
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Ugh. So my whole family had COVID for a week or so, right? I had worse symptoms than everyone else (I’ll spare you the details lol), and then I developed a sinus infection, which I’m still dealing with. So, everything’s a bit blah for me right now, but I’m trying to take it a bit easy while also trying to get back on track with everything.
  • marriage (relationship & libido) : We’re doing alright. I’ve been too sick to focus much on us, but we’re getting through it.
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The kids are still a bit sneezy & tired, but tis the season lol.
  • teacher (K & PK) : The girls are doing great with school! BooBoo hates phonics, but she enjoys surprising herself when she can read certain longer words! Bubby can pretty much count to 20, & is working beyond that already! And her fine motor skills haven’t gotten pretty impressive!!!
  • zB : I’m pretty proud of the progress I’ve made with my passion project ๐Ÿฅฐ I have my business plan all situated, and goals set for next year. I’m excited to see where this journey will take me, & I hope you’re excited to join me!!
  • homemaker (finance, cleaning, gardening, prepping, travel) : Yeahh. Lol. Finances are doing good! I’ve been testing Bettermentโ€™s high interest savings & investment accounts, and I’m pretty pleased! (I’m interested in other options too though, if anyone wants to share!) Everything else is kind ofโ€ฆunimportant right now. Except for Xmas decor hehehe!
  • witch : Nothing going on here. I’ve just been trying to meditate my way through my sicknesses.
  • reseller : Effortlessly made a couple sales on eBay, but I’m not really doing anything here either.

On an additional note, Frontier DSL has been the bane of my existence for the past couple of weeks. Well, Frontier in general, really.

Currently

eating : soup! ๐Ÿœ

drinking : tea โ˜•

watching : YouTube, cuz I can’t stream anything else with how terrible my internet’s been! Lots of Moe Sargi, and some bigfoot videos lol

reading : Nothing. I keep trying to read the 4 Hour Workweek, but I just get so burned out on it!

playing : Bingo Showdown & Candy Crush

buying : Xmas gifts! And bday gifts for hubby & bubby!

listening to : YouTube

celebrating : Xmas, Yule, & bdays!

pinning : yoga, Green Day, homeschool

planning on taking it a bit easy so I can heal

feeling : Sicky ๐Ÿ˜ซ

Where are you at right now? Let me know in the comments below!!