Solo Shows, Old Ghosts, and Decent Beer: A Night Out with Myself

Wall of Guitars at the Riviera Theater

(In case you missed it, you can read my pervious post for context here : Grief, Love, and Loud Music: Why Iโ€™m Chasing a Ghost at a Rock Show)

I had a pretty good time at the Reverend Horton Heat show! By myself. My absolute only real complaint was that the seats were super small & there was no โ€œpitโ€.

Before

My car has a power steering leak, but that sure as hell wasnโ€™t about to stop me lol! I parked in a slightly sketchy spot around the corner from the venue, on the street so I could get out easily afterward.

I ended up walking a block in the other direction to pick up a pack of sneaky smokes – they didnโ€™t have my Camels, so I settled for Marb Blacks. $15, oof! Good thing I’m not a regular smoker lol!!

Bought myself a can of Molson because they didnโ€™t even have Budweiser at the bar (though I prefer Rolling Rock). $7 for a can of beer! But it was worth it to not have to listen to screaming children all day LOL! Had some nostalgic fun hanging out in the venueโ€™s โ€œpatioโ€. It was unusually chilly, but refreshing.

During

How have I never heard of Zydeco music?!?

Nathan and the Zydeco Cha Chas were lots of fun! They encouraged everyone to get up & dance for most of their set, which was exactly what I needed! Nathan & the washboard player even wandered around the crowd & got everyone moving, & now Iโ€™m officially a fan! ๐Ÿคฉ

RHH did their thing โ€” solid as always โ€” but the crowd was kind of a buzzkill. I had fun singing along to most of their songs, but everyone else at the show is such a drag, itโ€™s absurd to me. Itโ€™s nice to see the band, but the crowd kinda ruins it for me to be honest – why go to a show if you’re not gonna dance?!? I got a shirt & a tote bag, and ducked out a little early to beat the crowd (cuz, yโ€™know, power steering). (Oh, and because my phone was dying & I wanted to make sure I knew how to get home lol.)

Him

I didn’t see him at all. I wasn’t looking too hard, but for all I know he’s dead ๐Ÿ˜‘ Or he moved to another state. Or he just wasn’t there. Or he was & I just didn’t see him. Lol. Either wayโ€ฆ

I’m disappointed that I didn’t get a chance to at least say hi. I left still feeling a bit lost. Something’s still missing.


But yeah, I left with a mix of peace and confusion. But overallโ€ฆ

It was a fulfilling time. I got to feel like myself for a few hours. Lots of smiles & dancing a bit hehe โ˜บ๏ธ

If youโ€™ve ever chased a memory to a loud venue or danced your heart out just to feel something real โ€” I see you.

Tell me about your favorite solo adventure, or a night that surprised you. Iโ€™d love to hear it.

And if youโ€™re new here, hit subscribe and stick around for more stories from the edge of chaos.

Rock on. ๐Ÿ–ค

Where I’m At #10

I prefer Rolling Rock… lol

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just random updates about whatโ€™s going on in my life at any random time, based on the areas / roles in my life.

  • planner : Well, I was planning on hosting a baby shower for my step daughter, but she hasnโ€™t talked to anyone (myself, her father, her aunt) in like 3 weeks so weโ€™re assuming her mom is setting something up for her. Which is unfortunate, but we canโ€™t let it bother us. So, I donโ€™t know what Iโ€™m planning right now lol. Hubby & I have our 6th wedding anniversary coming up, so weโ€™ll have to figure something out for that.
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Iโ€™ve lost 10 pounds so far!!! Iโ€™ll share a separate post on that sometime soon, to share what Iโ€™ve been doing. My mind is clearing up a bit after that concert, but I still donโ€™t have enough time to do all the things I want to do lol (such is the human condition, eh?) And Iโ€™m tempted to go back to college & get my RN certification (more on that in a future post tooโ€ฆprobably).
  • marriage : 6 year anniversary coming up! Weโ€™ve been doing a little better each day since we respectfully aired some grievances, soโ€ฆyay!
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The girls are good. BooBoo has been obsessed with toads – she even put a teeny tiny one in her unicorn makeup bag & tried to make a pet out of it lol! And Bubby is in love with the concepts of โ€œqueensโ€ & โ€œprincessesโ€, and being very elegant & wearing beautiful dresses hehe!
  • homeschool teacher (1st grade & PK) : Freaking out as usual. Lol. I have my letter of intent submitted; so now I have to compile an IHIP. BooBoo finished Easy Peasyโ€™s Phonics class & has started Sight Words – the placement test suggested sheโ€™s not ready for 1st grade reading, but Sight Words seems too easy for her (maybe Iโ€™ll skip a few lessons?) (I could probably use to skip some math lessons too lol). I want to start a different PK2 curricula for Bubby soon too, because I donโ€™t think sheโ€™s catching on as much as Iโ€™m comfortable with Easy Peasyโ€™s PK.
  • zenBLITZ : I NEED TO MAKE MORE TIME TO WRITE!!! Let alone create digital products & whatnot. ๐Ÿ˜ญ
  • homemaker (finance, cleaning, gardening, prepping, travel) : All is pretty well. Lots of focus on cleaning up the yard.

Currently

eating : Mulberries, blueberries, & wild blackberries – picked fresh daily! ๐Ÿ˜‹

drinking : Lime water, coffee, wine

watching : Music videos

reading : I gave up on โ€œEverything is Fuckedโ€ for now. Thinking about picking up โ€œHow to Win Friends & Influence Peopleโ€ (a classic) or โ€œThe Whole Brain Child. Not sure yet. (Any suggestions?!? ๐Ÿ˜‰)

playing : Dolls with my kids

buying : Cheap plants from a local greenhouse

listening to : 90โ€™s punk & ska, hehe

celebrating : 6 years of marriage, 8 years of dating!

pinning : journaling, self care, pretty colorful pics

planning : anniversary

feeling : ok

Where are you at? Let me know in the comments!

Rock on!!

Grief, Love, and Loud Music: Why Iโ€™m Chasing a Ghost at a Rock Show

Image generated with ChatGPT

I feel the need to revisit a topic I wrote about a couple months ago, because Iโ€™ve since had a lot of thoughts floating around my head.

I wrote then about my friend who felt that he was in love with me; and as much as I absolutely loved the shit out of him, I never wanted more than a friendship.

We havenโ€™t seen or talked to each other in over a decade.

But heโ€™s been on my mind quite a bit lately. To the point where Iโ€™m going alone to a concert heโ€™ll probably be at (if he even still lives around here) – not just to see if I can pull anything from the ashes, but also so I can get the fuck away from screaming children & feel like a human for a few hours LOL. (Iโ€™m literally trying to write this right now with screaming children running around because I havenโ€™t had time to work on anything. I can practically feel the smoke coming out of my ears.)

The Past

Over the last couple months, a ton of old memories have been flooding back. And there was a lot of love there. Like, a LOT. I never even realized a lot of the things I do now because I was so young (in my 20โ€™s), and always so scared of losing him.

I always worried so much about him cuz he was always dealing with so much stress, and I wanted to be there for him as much as I possibly could. I still do.

He had such an adorable smile, and he gave great hugs. I loved talking to him because he was so different from me, yet still so similar. He was encouraging, flattering, and really really sweet. Not to mention resilient as fuck, and I admired the hell out of that. He’s always been one of my absolute favorite people I’ve ever known.

He was also pretty brutal at times. (Though, isnโ€™t everyone?) I loved him too much for that to scare me offโ€ฆuntil he blatantly told me to fuck off. Soโ€ฆthat sucked.

The Present

Iโ€™ve moved on with my life. I hardly thought about him for a long time – Just fleeting thoughts, wondering how heโ€™s doing, wishing he were around to share bits of my life with. Overall, I was too busy living.

I donโ€™t know what sparked him back in my mind. I really donโ€™t.

Iโ€™ve noticed that grief works in cycles, at least for me. Part of me thinks this might just be my brain still grieving the relationship we had. Especially since I never fully understood why we donโ€™t still have that.

Little random things keep happening too, that remind me of him. Which makes me wonder if the universe is trying to tell me something. Which might be silly. But it also might not.

The Future

So, Iโ€™m going to see Reverend Horton Heat. He introduced me to them a million years ago, and theyโ€™ve since become my favorite driving tunes.

I wonโ€™t get my hopes up about him being there. But they kinda are, I’m not gonna lie. lol

I wonโ€™t get my hopes up about him being happy to see me. But I donโ€™t really care (not gonna lie). If heโ€™s not, Iโ€™ll still enjoy the show. And a couple beers. And no screaming children.

I just donโ€™t want to waste any more time. I hate wasting time, cuz tomorrow is never promised and the โ€œALS gene time bombโ€ ticks louder in my ear every year.

If thereโ€™s ever anything I can do about anything, I always want to do it now.

And itโ€™s so hard to connect with people these days, especially since COVID – Iโ€™d rather hold onto those I know I love, while I can.


Lifeโ€™s too damn short to wonder what if forever.

If youโ€™ve got someone on your mind lately โ€” a friend, a flame, or even a ghost โ€” maybe this is your nudge to reach out.

โœจ Drop a comment if youโ€™ve ever chased closure, connection, or just needed a night to feel alive again. Iโ€™m listening.

And hey, wish me luck. Either way. ๐Ÿป

Where Iโ€™m at #9

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just random updates about whatโ€™s going on in my life at any random time, based on the areas / roles in my life.

  • planner : Hm. Iโ€™m not much of a planner anymore, heh. Normally Iโ€™d be all about adventures this time of year, but we donโ€™t have much time to work with because of homeschool & kidsโ€™ extracurricular activities. Next party weโ€™re due for is Tie Dye, but only one of my invited guests is gonna be able to make itโ€ฆI think (which is fine cuz SiLโ€™s my fave lol) – Iโ€™m looking forward to dying some onesies for my step granddaughter hehe. Then BooBooโ€™s bestieโ€™s bday party is gonna be at some bumper car thing, so that should be fun. And Iโ€™m hoping to go to a concert by myself later in the month (cuz OMFG I need some โ€œmeโ€ time!!! And I need to see if my old friend is still aroundโ€ฆcuz I miss him too muchโ€ฆ)
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Hmmmโ€ฆ Iโ€™m hanging in there. Iโ€™ve been on a pretty strict but enjoyable diet & exercise routine, and Iโ€™ve lost about 5 lbs the past month! More importantly – I feel pretty great (except my scoliosis is pretty mad at me, but whatever heh). My mindโ€™s been a bit chaotic though, to be honest. Lots swirling around my mind – been trying to get it to go somewhere, but itโ€™s still fighting with me. (Shouldnโ€™t force it, I know. Meditate & be patient, I know.)
  • marriage : Doing pretty well! Trying. Heโ€™s been doing pretty good, & Iโ€™ve been trying to support that. Iโ€™m just glad things are finally settling down after the chaos weโ€™ve been navigating together the past couple years.
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The girls areโ€ฆkids. LOL. Small children are terrorists, I swear (is my blog being flagged for using that word?!? LOL) Everyone has their cycles – theyโ€™re in a particularly challenging time right now lol
  • teacher (K & PK) : Oh boy. Among thoughts swirling & not going anywhere productive is homeschool. Iโ€™ve got so much to do, & I want to do so much more, but I have to find time to do it, andโ€ฆAAAGH! Plus, Iโ€™ve gotta get all the legal stuff situated for BooBoo to go into first grade – yippie skippie hehe. Theyโ€™re doing good, though. BooBoo can read like a champ at this point, & sheโ€™s been really enjoying working on math more. Bubbyโ€™s starting to identify more letters & numbers, so I guess patience is key with dyslexia (though weโ€™re not completely sure if sheโ€™s dyslexic or just stubborn heh). Both girls are enjoying the KiwiBox Tinker Crate, where they have to assemble their toys & understand how they work before they use them (yay STEM! lol)
  • zB : Ugggggh. (Sorry for all the frustration LOL!) Iโ€™m sick of writing SEO optimized, audience focused, butter & sugar bullshit content. I’ve enjoyed what I’ve written, butโ€ฆ While algorithms & Google trends love articles like โ€œ26 ways to be more vibrant than Blippiโ€, I’m kinda making myself nauseous lol. I’d like to maintain the edgy self help bend, but not exclusively. Entertainment, communityโ€ฆand whatever’s truly on my mind at the time – that’s where I’d like zenBLITZ to head from here on.
  • homemaker : Fuck all that. Like, all of it. LOL. Noโ€ฆfinances are fine, cleaning isnโ€™t as important as other things, yardwork is my jam when itโ€™s not fucking raining, and thatโ€™s it. I refuse to make travel plans until the skoolie is ready to go, & itโ€™s very much not, so…

Currently

eating : Lots of fucking salads! LOL

drinking : Water, wine, & coffee

watching : Poker Face is pretty good. And Twisted Metal. Younger, of course.

reading : Still working on โ€œEverything is Fuckedโ€ by Mark Manson, but Iโ€™m struggling to find time for it lately

playing : with the kiddos

buying : stuff to tie dye

listening to : All kinds of stuff I forgot I liked!

celebrating : Summer!!!

pinning : Green Day, homeschool, exercise

planning : Tie Dye party, baby shower

feeling : Unsureโ€ฆ

Where Iโ€™m At #8

โ€œAll I want for Easter is my 2 front teethโ€ ๐Ÿ˜‚

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just regular updates about whatโ€™s going on, based on the areas / roles in my life. Any particular goals Iโ€™m working on will be highlighted, so you can easily see what Iโ€™m actively working on improving. Leave a comment & give me ideas for things youโ€™d like to see me write individual posts about!

  • planner : I SOO want to do a BuJo again, & it just doesnโ€™t make any sense lol! I use my blog BuJo, but I miss setting up daily pages for my life – adding stickers & washi, & just having a linear notebook. Itโ€™s such a waste of time & money though. Notion has been rocking my world for like a year now lol. Anyway, Iโ€™m planning for BooBooโ€™s 6th birthday – I hope she has fun!! Our little tea party this past month was cute & fun (& I found out Iโ€™m gonna be a step grandma! Omfg!! ๐Ÿ˜ญ) And I really need to plan a concert or 2 this summer – itโ€™s been too long (last show I went to was Flogging Molly in 2019 ๐Ÿ˜ญ)!
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Well, Iโ€™ve been on a pretty interesting DIY diet & doing more intentional exercise, & itโ€™s all been going pretty well (as far as I can tell) – I feel better, overall. (Stay tuned for my next post to see why Iโ€™m going crazy with it now, heh.) I set up a class that Iโ€™ve been taking with ChatGPT on various topics within Stoicism, Buddhism, & psychology, & Iโ€™ve been loving every second of it!
  • marriage (relationship & libido) : Allโ€™s pretty good hehe. Weโ€™re both working on being more intentional with our time together. I got my wedding rings resized, & so Iโ€™m super excited to be able to wear them all the time again!!!
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The girls are good! Both are super excited to get outside more!
  • teacher (K & PK) : Schoolโ€™s been chugging along. They both love science & art. Bubbyโ€™s doctor agrees that sheโ€™s probably dyslexic, so I need to have her tested with the school soon – Hubbyโ€™s dyslexic, so heโ€™s been working with her to identify letters more โค๏ธ
  • zB : Iโ€™m loving writing this blog! ๐Ÿฅฐ I started a weekly newsletter (sign up here!), & Iโ€™m hoping to expand it a bit in the future, but Iโ€™m glad Iโ€™ve got it started hehe. Iโ€™m working on my social media strategy this month, but Iโ€™m a bit behind because I needed to write an extra post for the month heh. Thatโ€™s ok though – โ€œThrow the timeline out the window, itโ€™ll take what it takes!โ€
  • homemaker (finance, cleaning, gardening, prepping, travel) : Uhโ€ฆ Allโ€™s pretty good! Lots of cleaning to do, but at least Iโ€™m keeping up with maintenance fairly well heh. Iโ€™ve decided to say fuck it to the garden this year; hubby can do what he wants, if he wants. Same with travel – Iโ€™ll wait til our bus is ready to camp in before I bother to start making plans.

Currently

eating : Vegetables LOL

drinking : black coffee โ˜•

watching : Echoes seems pretty interesting. Younger is still a favorite! Alpha Males has been pretty funny!

reading : Everything is Fucked by Mark Manson

playing : Nothing, really

buying : Birthday gifts for BooBoo, & Pair Eyewear (Iโ€™m excited – hopefully theyโ€™re not too dorky hehe)

listening to : โ€œWish I Knew Youโ€ by The Revivalists, โ€œRevolution Radioโ€ by Green Day, & โ€œBurritosโ€ by Sublime are current favorites

celebrating : BooBoo!!

pinning : Green Day, exercise, fashion, & food

planning : BooBooโ€™s bday

feeling : Ok. My backโ€™s been bothering me a lot though ๐Ÿ˜•

Where I’m At #7

Yum!

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just updates about whatโ€™s going on in my life at any random time, based on the areas / roles in my life. Any particular goals Iโ€™m working on will be highlighted, so you can easily see what Iโ€™m actively working on improving. Leave a comment & give me ideas for things youโ€™d like to see me write individual posts about!

Warning : Itโ€™s been a rough month, Iโ€™m not gonna lieโ€ฆ

  • planner : Well, I set up a whole fondue party, only one of my guests RSVPd (however, 2 of the guests RSVPd to that guest instead of me, and at the last minute one of those guests informed us she was bringing 3 additional people)โ€ฆso, luckily, my youngest caught a cold & I had to cancel the party LOL. We did, however, enjoy an overnight stay at a local hotel! We went out for a nice ambient dinner & took advantage of the pool at the hotel, which the kids absolutely loved! I would definitely recommend this kind of โ€œstaycationโ€ to anyone who needs it! Next month, weโ€™ll be hosting a tea party for the girls, but Iโ€™m only inviting the one guest who RSVPd to the last one lol – fuck everyone else (sorry, not sorry). Not sure yet what mini adventure weโ€™ll be embarking on – Iโ€™m thinking maybe rollerskating or mini golf. Weโ€™ll see!
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Iโ€™ve been quite unhappy this month – lots of stuff on my mind. One big thing is that I had annual lab work done & my doctorโ€™s office said my cholesterol is a bit elevated and so I need to improve my diet & exercise and do follow up lab work in six months (Iโ€™ll be working on a related post soon!)
  • marriage (relationship & libido) : Heโ€™s been driving me crazy. Iโ€™m working hard to figure out how to deal with it.
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The girls are good! BooBoo got her yellow belt in karate, and Bubby started gymnastics this past month! I think Bubby caught her cold at gymnastics though because a lot of the parents there donโ€™t seem willing to keep their kids home when theyโ€™re sick (literally every little kid there is snotting all over the place – so gross!) So now weโ€™re all sick (especially me & Bubby!)
  • teacher (K & PK) : Having lots of fun with school, and BooBoo is always surprising herself when she can read things! Bubby is identifying more letters, but Iโ€™m still a little concerned that she might have inherited hubbyโ€™s dyslexia – so, we just go a bit easy with her, & push her pace a little but not too much.
  • zB : I actually upgraded my site! LOL. I wanted to start a weekly newsletter, and I needed a proper domain, so I finally bought zen-blitz.com – and Iโ€™m excited hehe! (Sign up for my weekly newsletter here & get a free set of journaling prompts!)
  • homemaker (finance, cleaning, gardening, prepping, travel) : Really havenโ€™t had time for much of any of this stuff (except for planning the overnight trip to the hotel).
  • witch : Trying to meditate more often. Hopefully my mind will calm down a bit soonโ€ฆ

Currently

eating : Gazpacho pasta salad! lol

drinking : Chamomile mint tea with honey

watching : White Lotus & The Baldwins on Max, and Sisters Feud, Alpha Males, & Younger on Netflix. And the new Daredevil series on Disney+, but Iโ€™m not sure how much I like it yet.

reading : Everything is Fucked by Mark Manson

playing : Fruit Merge on my phone

buying : Shoes for everyone but me heh

listening to : Stray Heart by Green Day

celebrating : Spring!

pinning : Green Day, homeschool, self care, journaling

planning : Tea party, mini adventure, & garden

feeling : Kinda shitty, to be honest

Where I’m At #5

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just random updates about whatโ€™s going on in my life at any random time, based on the areas / roles in my life. Any particular goals Iโ€™m working on will be highlighted, so you can easily see what Iโ€™m actively working on improving. Leave a comment & give me ideas for things youโ€™d like to see me write individual posts about!

  • planner : I have a lot of projects planned for February! Iโ€™m finishing up my digital audit as Iโ€™m writing this, which is always quite a relief – I must have deleted a zillion things I didnโ€™t even know I had! I still have to audit 10 years of Google Photos, but thatโ€™s another project all its own. (ETA : I realized I should add auditing my PKM to the list too, because the chaos Iโ€™ve created there is stressing me out – โ€œactionability โ€ฆ only save things that contribute to current projects & areas โ€ฆ itโ€™s not a museum of knowledge if you donโ€™t absorb or utilize the information!โ€) Next monthโ€™s projects include a โ€œWhat a Crock-Potluck Revival Partyโ€ (we havenโ€™t had a crockpot party in a while, so I thought weโ€™d get back on that wagon), I want to make an โ€œOh Shit!โ€ notebook (in case I get hit by a dump truck & my husband needs to know things he doesnโ€™t normally care about), as well as planning for fun stuff in warmer weather (travel, tattoos, concerts, etc)
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Forever working on my eating habits – I’ve been focusing on eating more consistently throughout the day because I have a bad habit of barely eating until dinnertime, and then going a little too crazy (cuz I love my dinner recipes! ๐Ÿ˜‹) I’ve been sleeping kind of crappy because I really like my quiet time in the mornings, and I should probably get back to my exercise routine, butโ€ฆnot right now ๐Ÿ˜† My brain’s been doing pretty good lol – Lots of fun ideas abound, feeling pretty chill (albeit a little cabin fever), and learning all kinds of interesting things about blogging!
  • marriage (relationship & libido) : Not doing too bad here, actually! Humor keeps things interesting lol
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The girls are doing pretty good, though I’m sure they can’t wait til it’s warm enough to go outside every day! They’ve been keeping busy drawing, painting, & playing with their dolls mostly. And enjoying a little bit of Legs Marvel Superheroes on Xbox hehe
  • teacher (K & PK) : They’ve been doing really well with school, though it was hard getting back into the rhythm after the holidays. BooBoo surprises us (& herself!) every day with how well she can read already, and Bubby is getting really good at tracing lines
  • zB : Having a lot of fun (& driving myself absolutely crazy!) trying to choose which direction to go with everything related to the blog & products to create & everything. I know I’m overcomplicating everything though lol! I’ve been learning a lot about SEO, optimization tools (like Buffer for automating social media posts), and everything in between. (My brain hurts. ๐Ÿคช)
  • homemaker (finance, cleaning, gardening, prepping, travel) : Everything’s fine & dandy here! I need to rebalance our general finances, which I keep putting off. Been maintaining the cleaning, but not really making any progress (no time!) And I’m looking forward to travel & garden planning soon!

Currently

eating : crockpot dinners

drinking : hot lime water, & hot grapefruit water (way better than lemon water!)

watching : Hubby keeps trying to make me watch movies. I don’t generally have the attention span for movies. Blink Twice was pretty good. Back to Action was pretty terrible. The show Younger hasn’t been too bad. And surprisingly, the series Maxton Hall has been pretty interesting. And Ripley, omg, that was actually pretty good lol!

reading – Nothing. I haven’t really had much interest in any particular books lately. But I’ve kept up with my Daily Stoic Journal every day!

playing : Board games with the girls, especially Candy Land hehe โ˜บ๏ธ

buying : Not much. Went a little crazy on Temu because I really needed a new winter coat. I also ended up with a couple gifts for hubby, gloves, some new eyebrow rings, and a bunch of other things I’ll be surprised to see when they come ๐Ÿ˜…

listening to : My โ€œTunesโ€ playlist on YouTube – lots of Green Day & Foxboro Hot Tubs, Reverend Horton Heat, & โ€œWish I Knew Youโ€ by the Revivalists (me & hubby’s dating anthem hehe)

celebrating : Midwinter & Valentine’s Day

pinning : wallpapers, self care, Green Day

planning – projects, a party, goals

feeling – generally good, but a bit restless!

Where are you at? Let me know in the comments below!! ๐Ÿ˜€

Where I’m At #4

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just random updates about whatโ€™s going on in my life at any random time, based on the areas / roles in my life. Any particular goals Iโ€™m working on will be highlighted, so you can easily see what Iโ€™m actively working on improving (and see that I do try to practice what I preach). Leave a comment & give me ideas for things youโ€™d like to see me write individual posts about!

Hi everyone! Itโ€™s been a rough month for my family – we all got COVID mid-November, & apparently weโ€™re all still dealing with the aftermath. Yeah, seriously. My kidsโ€™ pediatrician told me I was probably misdiagnosed with a sinus infection because she said theyโ€™ve regularly seen some COVID symptoms lasting up to 15 weeks. So thereโ€™s that.

On a better note, our holidays were lovely, & I hope yours was as well!

Letโ€™s get into how December went for meโ€ฆ

  • planner : I actually just switched up my Notion setup a little bit! My main dashboard is now a gallery view of the PARA method, with โ€œProjectsโ€ being the equivalent of my planner. โ€œAreasโ€ are the equivalent of the roles you see here, with each area having a separate page & each relevant page having a section for tasks & notes. I like it a lot so far! Also, Iโ€™m really excited to move into a new journal! Iโ€™ve made an entire year fit into an A5 Stalogy for the second year in a row, & that poor notebook is about to explode!
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Iโ€™ve really been struggling with my diet & exercise ever since I first got sick; thatโ€™s a real challenge for me – picking back up after illness. (Something for me to work on!) Iโ€™ve really been enjoying journaling & writing my blog posts; havenโ€™t been terribly interested in reading any books lately (I keep trying to read Tim Ferrissโ€™ 4 Hour Workweek because I like his writing style & some of his ideas, but I just canโ€™t stay interested.) Emotionally, Iโ€™ve been pretty up & down because of being sick. Bleh.
  • marriage : Weโ€™ve been rediscovering old ways to have adventures, considering the weather. Itโ€™s been fun going โ€œwindow shoppingโ€ & spontaneous restaurants for dinner!
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The girls have been great, despite having a very persistent cough. Their favorite Xmas gifts included some Magna Tiles, Miraculous Dolls, & Furblets lol
  • teacher (K & PK) : Weโ€™ve been taking it easy this month, to prep for & enjoy the holidays. Weโ€™ve worked through the curriculum a little bit when they felt like it, but most of this monthโ€™s education centered around the science of the changing seasons, measuring ingredients for homemade treats, playing games, & doing holiday worksheets.
  • zB : Had to move some things around because I was really struggling to maintain focus this month, & I wasnโ€™t sure if Iโ€™d have enough posts ready for the month, but I somehow managed to pull everything together & Iโ€™m excited to share those with you!!!
  • homemaker (finance, cleaning, travel) : I donโ€™t even wanna talk about the finances this month LOL – I just keep telling myself โ€œtis the season!โ€ Iโ€™ve gotten a lot more cleaning done with us not focusing so much on school, so thatโ€™s good. And Iโ€™ve been trying to plan some interesting adventures for these cold & snowy months – Weโ€™ll see what happens!
  • witch – Nothing going on here; I really should try to find some time to at least meditate more regularly, though I do a little bit every night.
  • reseller – Absolutely nothing going on here, besides a couple of sales. Iโ€™m still very much in limbo about how I want to go about my whole resale business right now & in the future. Itโ€™s just not a priority.

Currently

eating – Lots of soup!

drinking – Hot lime water ๐Ÿ˜‹

watching – Beast Games, Xmas movies, Lincoln Lawyer, & finished Royal Pains just in time for it to leave Netflix!

reading – Blog posts

playing – โ€œBeat the Parents โ€œ & โ€œWould You Rather?โ€ (card games from the Dollar Tree that I got the kids hehe)

buying – All kinds of stuff we donโ€™t need, just cuz itโ€™s discounted post-holiday (we really need to put the brakes on! LOL)

listening to – Rain!

celebrating – My youngest is turning 4! ๐Ÿฅณ

pinning – self care, journaling, homeschool stuff, & Green Day lol

planning – Kiddoโ€™s bday, goals

feeling – Excited for a new year!

How was your December, & what are you looking forward to in January? Let me know in the comments below!!

And if youโ€™d like, feel free to use this free desktop background I made on Canva for whatever youโ€™d like (I was just screwing around while I was sick, hehe) ๐Ÿ˜˜

See you next week!!

Where I’m At #3

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just random updates about whatโ€™s going on in my life at any random time, based on the areas / roles in my life. Any particular goals Iโ€™m working on will be highlighted, so you can easily see what Iโ€™m actively working on improving (and see that I do try to practice what I preach). Leave a comment & give me ideas for things youโ€™d like to see me write individual posts about!

  • planner : Trying to refresh my whole system ahead of the new year because I feel a bit stagnant. I’m testing out a simplified morning routine, a more insight driven journaling routine, and a more simplified goal planning system.
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Ugh. So my whole family had COVID for a week or so, right? I had worse symptoms than everyone else (I’ll spare you the details lol), and then I developed a sinus infection, which I’m still dealing with. So, everything’s a bit blah for me right now, but I’m trying to take it a bit easy while also trying to get back on track with everything.
  • marriage (relationship & libido) : We’re doing alright. I’ve been too sick to focus much on us, but we’re getting through it.
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The kids are still a bit sneezy & tired, but tis the season lol.
  • teacher (K & PK) : The girls are doing great with school! BooBoo hates phonics, but she enjoys surprising herself when she can read certain longer words! Bubby can pretty much count to 20, & is working beyond that already! And her fine motor skills haven’t gotten pretty impressive!!!
  • zB : I’m pretty proud of the progress I’ve made with my passion project ๐Ÿฅฐ I have my business plan all situated, and goals set for next year. I’m excited to see where this journey will take me, & I hope you’re excited to join me!!
  • homemaker (finance, cleaning, gardening, prepping, travel) : Yeahh. Lol. Finances are doing good! I’ve been testing Bettermentโ€™s high interest savings & investment accounts, and I’m pretty pleased! (I’m interested in other options too though, if anyone wants to share!) Everything else is kind ofโ€ฆunimportant right now. Except for Xmas decor hehehe!
  • witch : Nothing going on here. I’ve just been trying to meditate my way through my sicknesses.
  • reseller : Effortlessly made a couple sales on eBay, but I’m not really doing anything here either.

On an additional note, Frontier DSL has been the bane of my existence for the past couple of weeks. Well, Frontier in general, really.

Currently

eating : soup! ๐Ÿœ

drinking : tea โ˜•

watching : YouTube, cuz I can’t stream anything else with how terrible my internet’s been! Lots of Moe Sargi, and some bigfoot videos lol

reading : Nothing. I keep trying to read the 4 Hour Workweek, but I just get so burned out on it!

playing : Bingo Showdown & Candy Crush

buying : Xmas gifts! And bday gifts for hubby & bubby!

listening to : YouTube

celebrating : Xmas, Yule, & bdays!

pinning : yoga, Green Day, homeschool

planning on taking it a bit easy so I can heal

feeling : Sicky ๐Ÿ˜ซ

Where are you at right now? Let me know in the comments below!!

Where I’m At #2

โ€œWhere Iโ€™m atโ€ posts are just random updates about whatโ€™s going on in my life at any random time, based on the areas / roles in my life. Any particular goals Iโ€™m working on will be highlighted, so you can easily see what Iโ€™m actively working on improving (and see that I do try to practice what I preach). Leave a comment & give me ideas for topics youโ€™d like to see posts about!

  • planner : I keep toying with the idea of analog planners, but they’re so impractical for me right now! I miss my Happy Planner & my bullet journal, but everything’s still working so well for me on Notion that it doesn’t make sense to fix something that isn’t broken! I did create a horizontal weekly layout with a memo section for my mini Happy Planner, but I mostly use it to get a focused overview of my appointments, goals, & meals for the week. I guess it helps gain some perspective.
  • self (body & mind, emotion & education) : Not much going on here, except for with my diet. I’m trying to follow a โ€œmindful eating scheduleโ€ I created with ChatGPT. I like it a lot so far, but I have some trouble with tired / stress eating around dinner time. For example, I may have eaten too many brownies this evening & kinda wanna crawl into a hole right now lol oops. Progress, not perfection – I will try not to do that again tomorrow!
  • marriage (relationship & libido) ; Going pretty good. I’ve been enjoying working on improving my libido, and working with sexual energy more in my life. Hubby’s enjoying the journey too lol! Next week I will try out the โ€œRadical Intimacyโ€ course on DailyOm, and I’ll let you know how it goes
  • mom (BooBoo & Bubby) : The little monsters are good. BooBoo is starting to read like a pro, and Bubby still loves her dolls. Both girls want Furbits for Xmas (๐Ÿ˜ฑ)
  • teacher (K & PK) : School has been going pretty well. I love ChatGPT for helping me with ideas for lesson plans!
  • zB : I’ve been enjoying my writing journey quite a bit, and I’m learning a lot! I love it!!
  • homemaker (finance, cleaning, gardening, prepping, travel) : Still gotta plan a little family cabin trip. Hopefully I can get that situated this week. Working on a cool “Friendsgiving” party for this month (charcuterie board & board / card games), and a chill family Thanksgiving dinner.
  • witch : Nothing going on here. I celebrated Samhain with a day full of journaling though, which was very much needed.
  • reseller : BLAH! Still mad at resale, still haven’t done anything about it.

Currently

eating : Brownies lol

drinking : Rosรฉ, lime water, coffee with pumpkin spice creamer & occasionally a shot of Trader Vic’s Macadamia Nut Liqueur ๐Ÿ˜‹

watching : Outer Banks, Nobody Wants This, Agatha All Along (OMG I love it lol)

reading : Good Morning Good Life by Amy Landino

playing : Bingo Showdown & Candy Crush Saga

buying : Nothing, so help me god

listening to : Green Day, Reverend Horton Heat, Lofi, other stuff my family members hate LOL (though I did sing Barbie Girl in the car with BooBoo the one day, that was pretty cool hehehe โ˜บ๏ธ)

celebrating : the rest & reflection time of year nearing

pinning : self care, Green Day, planners, Xmas, crochet

planning : Thanksgiving & Friendsgiving

feeling : tired! Hopeful, stressed

Where are you at? Let’s chat in the comments!!!